2017 has been an exceptional year for me, a year of hard work, struggle, perseverance and achievements. A year I had wanted to be a very quiet one but instead had a tough time to keep track of everything that was happening. I usually don’t share my every day life on social media, but this year has been an exception, so just felt like revisiting it and also take some time to be thankful to the ones who were constantly by side as I went through it all- especially my ever patient husband, my loving parents and my sister who has been my go-to person and best listener this year and of course my dog- for just being him!
January: Started the year with the hope that the year 2017 would be a calm one. But few days later, received a rude notice from my neighborhood to throw away our dog (and for every pet owners to throw their pets in that community). Fought for my and my dog’s right, didn’t quite succeed but received a lot of warm support.
February: Traveled to 2 remote districts for my PhD research follow up and survived an accident where the jeep slipped through a dangerous slippery road in a remote hill, in the middle of nowhere, where I was at the bottom of a tilted jeep. I was luckily rescued by climbing out of the jeep’s window. After a rather misadventure returned back to join a new job completely unaware of the challenges ahead.
March: Moved to a new house. Just a week later, I fractured my foot! Two days later, we launched our most awaited mobile app! I made a presentation about our app with my swollen foot up pointing at the audience, wondering if they were more interested in the bandaged foot facing them or the contents I was explaining. But extremely thankful for the positive reviews we received and of course for the pictures where I posed standing on only one foot.
April: Learned the art of walking with crutches, continued going to work climbing the stairs with the crutch and got better at it with every passing day. It was the best work out ever. I even attended events in the midst of staring glances at my fancy green boot cast. I enjoyed wearing mismatched pair of shoes, a regular shoe in one foot and cast shoes on the other.
May: Was being judged terribly at work to be ‘too young’..’too inexperienced’ or even ‘stupid’ and definitely ‘unwanted’ to handle the position given to me, nobody bothered to actually look into the actual quality of work I was doing or have done in the past. I had to travel to 6 districts in 5 weeks all alone by myself, when I was still learning to walk again, with a broken foot still recovering, on pain killers just to prove my worth! Meanwhile, an old friendship was scarred…
June: I slowly start conquering the judgement passed against me at work and finally learned to walk again normally. My 86 years old grandmother undergoes a risky surgery following a hip fracture. We, her children and grandchildren take turns to look after her. Realized the value of family and love; the fear of losing someone and standing together in difficult times and many more complex emotions.
July: A helping staff at work falls sick, the next day he was already in a ventilator fighting for his life and passed away a few days later! Couldn’t do much to help, except feeling shocked and terribly terribly sorry….
August: Simply couldn’t balance myself and my home-work-PhD anymore and had my first ever episode of anxiety attack. But managed to put myself back together somehow.
September: Finally appreciations started pouring in at work, the ‘useless’ me somehow transformed into a ‘brilliant’ me. Meanwhile my professor, who perhaps had known the real me and my true potentials actually showed me the way and encouraged me to finish my PhD on time.
October: Decided to finally quit the job, wrapped up my responsibilities, made plans to concentrate on PhD full time.
November: Traveled back to Tokyo, back to my university, where the old friends were gone. But finally found a perfect niche that I had been missing for so long…a place that could stimulate my brain and yet keep me calm.
December: I miraculously finished writing my PhD thesis that I had been procrastinating for a long time! I exceeded my own thresholds and expectations and worked the hardest and the longest hours in my life. I felt the magic, like a blessing showered upon me, got my confidence back, my calmness back, and my thought blocks and writing blocks were gone. Finally, ending the year in a more relaxed and quiet note.
I don’t dare to make any resolution for next year but I feel ready for the battles ahead!
Hope you had an exciting 2017 and wish an even better 2018!!